She feel like she is drowning.
She is angry, and at same time she is afraid. Times have changed.
Every morning, she wake up, and make up her face just to go through the day and just to feel like old days. She is indeed grateful for those around her, but she is feeling somewhat empty. Wondering if it will get better.
They tell her that she needs to be strong.
Easier said than done.
They tell her it will get better, but its been so hard that she can’t even lift herself up.
One of the things that she is loved for is making those around her feel better about themselves. By showing them kindness.
Time heals all wounds
She is strong, she believes that she cannot be broken.
Deep down she knows that she is no better..
She is a dreamer.
She cares for the people around and she’d do anything to care for those that she loves. Though people take advantage of such kindness. She question why she is so weak.
She used to smile so hard that people would ask if her smile is even real. Now her smile is all plastics. When they question about her laughter, her response is “Smiling is the best way to not let the tear drops mess up my eyeliner.”
She is a weak being
She stop dreaming. She knows as long as she’s moving, it will all get better in time. Having Tawakul (trust) in Allah.
If only they knew what her life is like day in day out they wouldn’t ask her why she stay busy. Why she never want to go out.
While everyone is begging for the sister, daughter and friend they knew, she stay praying qiyamul layl (night prayer) thanking God for guiding her. Because she doesn’t want to be in the spotlight anymore.
'Let not your love become attachment, nor your hate become destruction.'
Omar Bin Al-Khattab.