[Why]ORRIES..

Life is exactly what you make out of.

Do not dislike things too much, or even love it too much. Protect your heart from such strong feelings..

Learning and self-taught is the best thing that ever happened to humans. And there’s a beauty in that. Such as, being able to accept things as it is or having to change it for the better.

Be your own THINKER. I feel like we live in a society where having to think outside the box means one must agree with the next person. If by struggling with self-confidence. Find a way to change that; practice makes it perfect. Be true to yourself though.

Let things be for the way it is. Spend your time with people who are worthy of appreciating you. Again as humans we make mistakes. Such as, trusting too much, getting betrayed, and being belittled. Never do too much or too less. Stay balanced.

Remember “after a storm there is a rainbow.”

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StrANGER: YOU..

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I wish to hold your hand one more time. I wish to brush your hair one more time. Or maybe wash your face. I know you wouldn’t let me wash your face because I remember how you loved to do wudu two hours before fajr prayer. Or how you’d ask me every other hour if it’s time to pray yet.

One can only wish. 

I wish to remind you my name before eating breakfast. I miss how you’d refuse to eat before mother.

I miss how you used to ask about my morning. And just by looking at my face, you’d know if anything is up with me.

I’m sorry that I didn’t spend a lot of time with you. I was too busy thinking that we’d have all the time of the world and you’d get better. I thought we’d make up for all the years.

I’m mad at myself that I don’t have stories about you. The only thing I can clean and maybe wash now is your shoes.

As I look at the scuff marks on your shoes. I wonder how the world treated you. If it was good to you.

May God have mercy on you.

Acceptance..

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Bismillah (In the name of Allah).

Although I feel like I’m breaking into pieces right now. Somehow I make it through the day. I’m slowly, becoming something I never thought I’d be. And I’m starting to like the new me.

Never underestimate the power of prayer.

The things that used to make me cry are the very things that encourage me to do better in life. To help others that are going through hardship. I know health will not forever last. Death does not discriminate against age, gender, religion, status and etc..

It is so hard for us to accept life for what it is all about. As humans, we are afraid of the unknown. The people we surround ourselves can make us or break us. People will listen, help only for certain amount of time. We must be grateful to have them around anyway.

To have a healthy life and relationships with those that are close to you, you must cut off toxic people. Do not cut them out of your life, but protect your heart from such people.

Whenever you feel like you don’t have enough in life or even when you feel like you are all alone through the hardship. Think about those that are grateful for what they have in life.

  • The blind man who’s in love with a stranger. The boy with no legs, but can outrun you any day. The girl who’s being bullied all through her school life is still spreading love to the world day in and day out.

I know I always talk about GRATITUDE, but I feel like being patient and being grateful go hand in hand. Nevertheless, our minds react to what is in our hearts. Just like when we eat, our stomach tell the brain that it is full. Being optimistic does not make you a crazy person. You’re just facing life with smiles. And praying for the better.

  • God created you and he is your provider. Be grateful and do as much as you can. He never burden us for what we cannot bare.

When We Fall..

He grew up in a small town on the countryside.

Where there is no access to education. He wanted to make something out of his life so he could provide for his mother and younger siblings.

At the age of eight, he left behind his mother and took the bus to the city where he started working as a fisherman. People say that he is too mature for his age, but his end goal in life is to be better than the person he was yesterday. Since you can’t do much about the past.

If one takes care of their parents and provide for their family, that is a blessing itself.

In his late thirties , he got married, graduated from university. And God blessed him with a big family. He is more like a alpha male. He is a respected man. He got used taking care of others to the point that he knows nothing of whats good for him.

After three decades, he is a grandfather now. He has nothing to regret of. Which is kinda scary. He never talks about his mistakes.

He is turning sixty-nine soon. For sixty years of his life, people loved him because he helped them, and he could walk on his own.

And now with age, and illness, he can’t think straight. He gets tired and irritated every other hour of the day.

Do people really got us when we fall ill and old? And when we cannot wake up on our own? Will they call us when they don’t hear from us?

Mankind wants you around only when you’re benefiting from. 

Lesson From Surah Al-Hadid

Asalaamu Alaiakum All!

My life choices was based on how people see and think of me. There was a point that I couldn’t recognize my own shadow. I’ve always been an outspoken person. I am a listening ear to a person in need and not only listening, but to be the answer to their prayers. Whether it is emotionally, financially or physically. I try to fix them as much as I can.

Though helping people taught me to be very conscious about who I am. It taught me to only rely my dependencies on my Creator.

Allah Azawajal.

Which is why I believe the Quran is my cure and it teaches me how to deal with my problems.

In life, people will say they are there if you need them, but they do not know what is in your heart.

They can’t protect your heart from harm; but your Creator.

After reading this Surah, specifically, the verse below it changed my perspective on life.It taught me not to hold on to people/things that will in the end leave or vanish.

ٱعۡلَمُوٓاْ أَنَّمَا ٱلۡحَيَوٰةُ ٱلدُّنۡيَا لَعِبٌ۬ وَلَهۡوٌ۬ وَزِينَةٌ۬ وَتَفَاخُرُۢ بَيۡنَكُمۡ وَتَكَاثُرٌ۬ فِى ٱلۡأَمۡوَٲلِ وَٱلۡأَوۡلَـٰدِ‌ۖ كَمَثَلِ غَيۡثٍ أَعۡجَبَ ٱلۡكُفَّارَ نَبَاتُهُ ۥ ثُمَّ يَہِيجُ فَتَرَٮٰهُ مُصۡفَرًّ۬ا ثُمَّ يَكُونُ حُطَـٰمً۬ا‌ۖ وَفِى ٱلۡأَخِرَةِ عَذَابٌ۬ شَدِيدٌ۬ وَمَغۡفِرَةٌ۬ مِّنَ ٱللَّهِ وَرِضۡوَٲنٌ۬‌ۚ وَمَا ٱلۡحَيَوٰةُ ٱلدُّنۡيَآ إِلَّا مَتَـٰعُ ٱلۡغُرُورِ (٢٠)

 (Know that the life of this world is only play and amusement, pomp and mutual boasting among you, and rivalry in respect of wealth and children. (It is) like a rain (Ghayth), thereof the growth is pleasing to the tiller; afterwards it dries up and you see it turning yellow; then it becomes straw. But in the Hereafter (there is) a severe torment, and (there is) forgiveness from Allah and (His) pleasure. And the life of this world is only a deceiving enjoyment.)

Surah Al-Hadid [Ayah 20]

This very verse is about how Allah is describing this world. How we should not hold on to this world, since it is nothing, but an amusement. I did not know how to let go of things; especially people.

I expected perfection, trying to become someone who I will never be. Growing up I was told what to do, who to be and how to live, but no one was there when I needed them the most.

Again, I was told how to live, but the Quran showed me who to be.

Remember even at your lowest, do not despair, God is the most forgiving.

Don’t FORGET..

Be proud that you learned the true face of those that purposely disappointed and mistreated you over and over again. Don’t treat them any different because they can’t simply treat you they way you want to be treated.

Be there for them anyways. And know your stand.

Don’t question if something wrong with you. When in reality they are the ones doing you wrong. Apologize if you are doing others wrong. This is not a one way thing. You may be innocent in some cases, but don’t forget that you are human.

If having to cut off toxic people out of your life, then do it so.

When you were pushed to this world not knowing what it is all about, only in the end to learn the purpose of life itself. Don’t let your personality be changed by the way climate changes.

In reality, life is all about what you make out of.

You are not living if you not learning.

Sometimes you need you to live, to do better and also help others to do better.

The biggest mistake you can make seeing things exactly how others want you to see.

FREE YOUR BEAUTIFUL MIND.

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HOPE

The very days that I feel like I don’t want to get up from bed are my one of a kind.

Those very days I want to disappear in my room are the days that motivate me to be better. To look deep into my soul and think to myself why am I the way I am.

The days I feel like it hurts to smile are the very days I that I strive to do the one thing that I am good at.

Giving smiles, and sharing smiles.

When you feel like you cannot smile my friend. Go walk up to the mirror and just smile, even if you don’t feel like it. Just try, because some wish to have such smile. 😄

Smiling is the best emotion that one can express. Its also the most beautiful mask you can wear when you’re falling to pieces.