Self-criticism is one of her best characteristics.

At times she shows her weakness, though she try hard to be bubble and full of life. She is struggling. Those that are close to her know that she changed. They can see it in her eyes that she hit so low that she believes there is no way for her to come up again.

We all have our own way of dealing with struggles. Especially when the storm of hardship hit us, we want those close to us to be our backbone. By at least reminding us that we are not alone in such position.

If need to cry out loud, do it! 

However, there is nothing GREATER than the help of God. By praying to him, even when you feel like you are broken. Never underestimate the power of prayer.

In addition, this is something for each and one of us to think about. Do we praise God when life is looking up for us? We are not aware that we are being tested with life,  when there is no hardship. We are being tested with the less fortunate. How we treat them. And if we help them.

To end with, remember we want to surround ourself with people, but we do not need them for us to find ourself. I’m not saying it is humanly possible to never surround ourselves with others, but can we let our characters be defined by the people we surround ourselves with? No. It need to be balanced or we will break.

This life is about making the best out of it.



Imperfectly perfect.

She was loved for the way she listen and talk. She busy herself by over thinking and analyzing things just to get by in life. That is one of her biggest flaws, but she doesn’t know that she is loved and appreciated.

She’s broken

Somehow she seems like she got it all together. She would break her back for those that she loves.

Her smile is contagious

She is a giver. She never ask for anything in return.

Strangers feel comfortable being around her because the only thing she is good at is smiling.

Some people took her kindness for weakness. They try to make her believe that the world is not always about smiles and giving. She knows that the purpose of life is to do good as long she lives.

God blessed some of us with shelter, food, and health. That is the best of wealth. 

You are meant to feel pain and pleasure because you’re a human. Do not be labeled by those that cannot appreciate your worth.

We Are All Created The Same.

So I was watching Loving Story while on break from studying. The opening quote of the documentary:

“Almighty God created the races white, black, yellow, malay and red, and he placed them on separate continents. And but for the interference with his arrangement there would be no cause for such marriages. The fact that he separated the races shows that he did not intend for the races to mix.”

Some of you are wondering why some people are so hateful and closed minded. Maybe they grew up with such mentality like the quote above. By believing that it’s not okay to be mixed.

To be honest, we live in a society where love only last for less than a minute and hate is  spread like wildfire.

I know you’re probably wondering why I’m sharing the quote. It’s because my whole life I never heard of such thing. And this quote is the very things that separates us as humans.

I grew up with the believe that we are all created from Adam and Eve. From the teaching of the Quran, God created us differently (race, sex, and tribes) so that we may recognize each other. To mix, with each other and learn from each other. Meaning so we don’t use our differences against one another.

وَلَقَدْ كَرَّمْنَا بَنِي آدَمَ وَحَمَلْنَاهُمْ فِي الْبَرِّ وَالْبَحْرِ وَرَزَقْنَاهُم مِّنَ الطَّيِّبَاتِ وَفَضَّلْنَاهُمْ عَلَىٰ كَثِيرٍ مِّمَّنْ خَلَقْنَا تَفْضِيلًا

We have certainly honored the children of Adam and carried them on the land and sea and provided for them of the good things and preferred them over much of what We have
created, with definite preference.
[Surah Al-Isra 17:70]

Another verse:

يَا أَيُّهَا النَّاسُ إِنَّا خَلَقْنَاكُم مِّن ذَكَرٍ وَأُنثَىٰ وَجَعَلْنَاكُمْ شُعُوبًا وَقَبَائِلَ
‎لِتَعَارَفُوا إِنَّ أَكْرَمَكُمْ عِندَ اللَّهِ أَتْقَاكُمْ إِنَّ اللَّهَ عَلِيمٌ خَبِيرٌ

O people, We have created you male and female and made you nations and tribes that you may know one another. Verily, the most noble of you to Allah is the most righteous of you. Verily, Allah is knowing and aware.     

[Surah Al-Hujurat 49:13]

Islam is against tribalism, racism and any sort of discrimination against another human. People will sometimes interparate their own meaning to make their argument valid which is why I put the translation of it.

To close with, do not forget where your end will be in life. For the interracial couple in Loving Story had to go through all of that trouble to just to be together. The law was made by people, but God’s words are perfect and they are there to make us be the best we can be.

People will dislike you for who you are, what you believe, and how you live. That’s because they can’t adopt change. If you think that you need to blend in with others to erase the fact that you’re different. Think about why you’re different in the first place.

What’s normal to you is not normal to others and vice versa.


The Best Thing..

When everything is broken and you want it all to be a dream. Ask yourself, are you truly living by protecting yourself when the storm hits? Or are you going to question about the storm? Are you also going to reflect on the storm and be grateful for it.

The best way to deal with the storm is to be grateful. Do not question if it’s going to get any worse. Do not run to the creation, but run to The Creator of the creation. Yes things are getting hard now, but think about the other things that’s going on in your life.

A man with one eye can see the world better than a man with both.

It could be the best thing that ever happened to you. When hardship hits, because it’s getting you ready to the next chapter of your life.

It’s like Erik Erikson’s development stages. So his theory is like you must go through certain stage of development to get you ready to the next stage. I’m pointing this out because of my blog’s name. The purpose of it is to feel our pain and pleasure. And at the same time appreciate these emotions.

I know a lot of us ask about how bad things happen to good people. We only say that because of how we see it. Because we love so and so and all of the sudden they are one of the good people. We need to start believing and living by how life has purpose than just having it our way. God give us a test, but also God give us the gift to cope with our struggles. And Then God congratulate us for having patience by blessing us with the things that we never asked for.

To close with, we ask about life suffering, but we never tend to see the good that comes out of the suffering.

The good in the bad.